Searching…searching…what are we searching for?

While we are searching, does anyone intervene and tell us what to do? We balk at the idea of someone controlling our lives. We want full control of everything we do. We rebel when someone tells us we are not doing something right or what to do. We usually end up doing the opposite to prove a point. But yet we still search. What are we searching for; love, peace, patience, joy, contentment and above all else self-control? Not realizing we can have these things. We may take our whole lives to realize this or it may come quickly to some. The key to having all of what we are searching for lies in Galatians 5: 22.

But when the Holy Spirit controls our lives, he will produce this kind of fruit in us; love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. Galatians 5:22

We don’t have to search anymore but we do have to give up one thing and that is control. When we have control of our lives, we usually fail, mindlessly wandering or never achieving what we desire. We cannot get everything listed in the above scripture on our own or by observing God through rituals and rules. We must love God, know him and give him control of our lives. It may be hard at first but then it comes easily. Really get to know the heart of God, develop a deep relationship with him and wholly give yourself to him. Our mindless searching will come to an end. We will learn what we desire lies with him and automatically go to him to receive it.

I pray you have a blessed week my friends.


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Crawling Out of Nothingness

As I sit here thinking about writing some more blog posts, I realize it has been some time since I wrote, but why? The hiatus I have been on has not been a spiritual one but one that put me in a pit. Not a pit of despair but a pit of nothingness. A pit where life consumes you with all of its responsibilities with a bit of laziness.  I am not going to list all of life’s responsibilities because that could go on forever. We all know what we each have to do in this life to survive. At times, we do tend to get lazy in our spiritual walk in spending some quiet time with God and forget or do not see what God has planned for us to do. We already may be doing exactly what He wants us to do and not realize it. We forget to let Him in and help us as we feel, “We got this”; “We can handle this all on our own.”  Life consumes us; fills our lives with many distractions and nothingness. God allows us to walk in this nothingness. He does not force us to walk with Him or come back to the path that was destined for us. We have to wake ourselves with a little nudging from Him. He did not design us to be robots but to be His loving children that want to spend time with Him and walk with Him. After our awakening, we need to find our way back. Allow our eyes to open to what He wants us to see not what we want to see. Crawling out of the pit can be as easy as opening our eyes to crawling out scratching and clawing; not wanting to change our lives. We are not fighting with God but we are definitely fighting ourselves within our minds. It is time to emerge from our nothingness and see the full potential we have been given. Experience the path that we were destined to be on.


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Relapses and Remissions

Life is a roller coaster. One minute we are up high, feeling great, healthy, and happy and the next minute we are soaring downwards feeling despair, depression, symptoms of our disease flaring. Why are things going wrong? Does not matter if we struggle with addictions, temptations, rebellion, disease, chaos or just everyday life; we are all on a roller coaster of some kind. Some may be straight and flat while others have many ups, downs and curves.

Remission is calming periods in our lives where things feel normal, we are not falling into a trap; definitely not a pit, symptoms have slowed and may have even stopped. We may be at the highest point of the rollercoaster or just the middle ground; cruising through life. We are happy, feel joyous and feel nothing can go wrong during this time.

Relapses are a totally different story. They come in all shapes and sizes, some mild and major; symptoms are flaring, the disease has resurfaced, addictions and temptations are back in full force, chaos becomes unbearable. Life is definitely not normal. We wish this rollercoaster would just stop and we were not on it. Why do we have to be on it in the first place? Some relapses make us stronger while others make us realize our weaknesses. They teach us what it means to fully rely on God and His guidance for our lives.  A reminder we cannot do life on our own.

When I pray, you answer me; you encourage me by giving me the strength I need.
Psalm 138:3

I have had many different kinds of relapse in my life as most people have. At this stage in my life, my relapses are linked to my undiagnosed disease. This past week I found myself in yet again another relapse. I never understand why I go through them and cannot pinpoint anything that makes them happen. They just arrive unannounced. They are also a reminder for me to fully rely on God to help me rest in his arms and allow Him to give me the strength I need until a remission happens. They are also a reminder that many people in our world are struggling with something in their lives, need others to help pick them up, give them an encouraging word and to pray for them.

Relapses and remissions will always be a part of our lives. Just remember God is walking beside you and He will give you the strength you need.

Blessings my friends!

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Beautifully Abnormal but Extraordinary

Our lives are abnormal but God can make it extraordinary.

Abnormal is the new normal for us. We sometimes struggle to settle into a new life after something happens. Whether it is an illness, an accident, an injury, becoming a cancer survivor, having a child, getting married, a tragedy, losing a loved one, losing a job, dealing with chaos etc, our life has taken a new twist. Life is not like it was before. Therefore we feel it is abnormal but a new life is waiting for us. A new and exciting life awaits. Our life can be extraordinary if we walk with God. He turns ordinary into extraordinary.

Here are a few examples from the Bible:
Naaman – Mighty warrior, had leprosy (a dreadful disease), through faith God healed him
Jehosheba – came from a pagan family, was a princess, and saved the line of David from being destroyed which also was the lineage of Jesus Christ
David – flawed, a man of contrasts, by faith killed a giant, loved God deeply, a man after God’s own heart (Acts 13:22)
Noah – righteous, by faith built an ark
Abraham – came from a pagan family, left everything behind, built a great nation
Moses – a murderer, great leader, saved God’s people
Rahab – a prostitute, obeyed God, welcomed the spies, life spared
Jonah – ran from God, whined, brought God’s message to change hearts of many living in spiritual darkness
Paul – intelligent, prosecuted Christians, transformed, became strong voice in spreading the Good news, powerful testimony, no matter what happened he never lost his fierce intensity to tell others about Christ
Peter – uneducated fisherman, denied Christ three times, brash, impulsive, spoke without thinking, great voice in telling others about Christ
Hannah – barren, struggled with self-worth, followed through on a costly commitment, dedicated and gave her child to God whom became Israel’s greatest Judge, ordinary to extraordinary in her commitment
Mary Magdalene – seven demons lived within, transformed, obedient, genuine faith, at the cross, believed and obeyed before understanding, example of thankful living
And there are many others but God did some amazing things through them.

No one is perfect but in our imperfections, God makes us extraordinary. We never know what God can do in our weaknesses and imperfections until we allow him to have all that we are. God does not waste our time; he will use our past and present so we may serve him with our future.

Blessings to you my friend!

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