Life is a roller coaster. One minute we are up high, feeling great, healthy, and happy and the next minute we are soaring downwards feeling despair, depression, symptoms of our disease flaring. Why are things going wrong? Does not matter if we struggle with addictions, temptations, rebellion, disease, chaos or just everyday life; we are all on a roller coaster of some kind. Some may be straight and flat while others have many ups, downs and curves.
Remission is calming periods in our lives where things feel normal, we are not falling into a trap; definitely not a pit, symptoms have slowed and may have even stopped. We may be at the highest point of the rollercoaster or just the middle ground; cruising through life. We are happy, feel joyous and feel nothing can go wrong during this time.
Relapses are a totally different story. They come in all shapes and sizes, some mild and major; symptoms are flaring, the disease has resurfaced, addictions and temptations are back in full force, chaos becomes unbearable. Life is definitely not normal. We wish this rollercoaster would just stop and we were not on it. Why do we have to be on it in the first place? Some relapses make us stronger while others make us realize our weaknesses. They teach us what it means to fully rely on God and His guidance for our lives. A reminder we cannot do life on our own.
When I pray, you answer me; you encourage me by giving me the strength I need.
I have had many different kinds of relapse in my life as most people have. At this stage in my life, my relapses are linked to my undiagnosed disease. This past week I found myself in yet again another relapse. I never understand why I go through them and cannot pinpoint anything that makes them happen. They just arrive unannounced. They are also a reminder for me to fully rely on God to help me rest in his arms and allow Him to give me the strength I need until a remission happens. They are also a reminder that many people in our world are struggling with something in their lives, need others to help pick them up, give them an encouraging word and to pray for them.
Relapses and remissions will always be a part of our lives. Just remember God is walking beside you and He will give you the strength you need.
Blessings my friends!